Snack Attack

One of the hurdles I'm trying to overcome is eating when I'm not hungry. Why do I do this? Just yesterday I wanted something to eat. Anything, not even a craving, I just wanted to eat. I asked myself if I was hungry and decided I wasn't so I did the BL trick and popped some gum.

For all of the past 2 days I've been really good at journaling everything. I've been journaling temptations, and my work arounds. I've been planning out my meals and snacks. I've decided to give myself 2 snack times; 10:30 in the morning and 4:00 in the afternoon. I can only snack during those times and only if I'm hungry. Anything earlier or later is too close to a meal. At 10:30 I'll have a 100cal popcorn bag since that's when my salt craving hits and I can eat the whole bag since it's only 100 calories. At 4:00 I pack a green apple or some yogurt. We never eat before 7 at our house so this keeps me from raiding the fridge when I get home from work. At my snack times I ask myself if I'm hungry or eating just to eat. If I'm eating just to eat I'll save my snack for another day. Hey.. It's working so far.

D-day Recap

Don’t you hate it when you have a great plan and someone throws their 1year old yapping Maltese puppy into the mix? That’s what happened on Tuesday. We puppy sat Kb’s mom’s dog while they went out of town for a funeral. That dog was up most of the night and so were we. That led to the start of D-day as not so much “shock & awe” but more like a fizzed out roman candle. With the dog keeping us up and Kb going dove hunting at 5, I didn’t get much sleep so needless to say I didn’t get up and walk. I chose to do the peeps at work a favor and try to get a few more minutes of beauty rest. I knew Kb would be hunting after work too so I thought I’d just get my walk in that afternoon.

Tuesday I planned out my meals for the next day and that really helped. I find that if I plan what I’m going to eat I end up being completely satisfied since it was something I was looking forward to. I don’t know how that works but whatever. I stayed on plan all day and wasn’t really hungry. I knew what I was getting and when and it all went really well.

I also weighed in and measured yesterday morning. ~yikes~ I haven’t had a scale all summer and let’s just say I was shocked! It kinda brought me down a bit. Here’s a few of the thoughts that went through my head “how the hell did I let this happen” (even though I KNOW it didn’t happen over night and know good and well how I let it happen)“That’s the biggest number I’ve ever seen staring back at me”(Hopefully I won’t see it again) “I want a cookie for breakfast”. Realizing I didn’t have any cookies in the house to have for breakfast, I snapped out of it and thought “Remember how excited you are to start this journey?, Remember the time and research you’ve put into this?, Remember how miserable you feel?” and I snapped out of it. I stayed on track the rest of the day, I went for my walk when I got off work and I’m ready to do it all over again today. I mean, this is a life change and I'm ready to take it on. I got myself into this mess and I can get myself out of it.


It’s almost Friday people, we can do this.

Is your mind right?

It's here! D-Day is tommorow! I'm calling it D-day becuase it is my full on assault on my current habits and lifestyle. I'm going to eat less, eat better and move more! I'm really glad I took the past 10 days or so to get my mind right and didn't just have a couple of bad meals and said "that's it. MONDAY I'm starting over!" How many Mondays have we had? I feel focused! I have a plan and all the tools to make it work. I mean earlier this year I ran a freakin 1/2 marathon! I know I can be dedicated.

I've been loading up and researching all things Weight Watchers and reading up on my South Beach Diet. Neither one should really be called a "diet" both are about making the right choices. WW allows you to be more lenient and gives you the occasional splurge. The science behind South Beach makes sense and lets you make choices that keep you full longer and make your body work. A mix of the 2 should lead to a good healthy life.

I've been thinking about my workout plan and listening to my body. I really think I need to get more confidence in janky 'ol ankle before I start jumping around with Jillian. I'm go to keep it low impact this first 6 weeks and walk 20 minutes every morning before work and do pilates Tuesday and Thursday. Since I know I like to push myself I going to add in 100 pushups training program. It's a training program that gets you to 100 pushups in 6 weeks. Right now it sounds crazy but I need that structure. I liked my marathon training programs when they gave me an exact workout to get me to an exact goal. Gotta find what works for you right?? Wish me luck!

I'll be weighing in tomorrow and taking measurement and even a picture to log where I was when I started this crazy mess.

Path to Self Destruction

For the past couple of months, I’ve been on a path to self destruction. The past couple of weeks that path has taken a hard left turn and headed straight down hill. As I’ve said before, I’m not a good dieter if I’m not working out. The Janky ol Ankle has kept me from working out and I’ve been blaming my lack of working out as to why I’ve been eating so horribly. Eating horribly = LBs gained. I didn’t know snowballs could stand this heat but I’m rolling up a pretty big one as I go round and round with excuses. I mean, isn’t that how everyone ends up gaining weight? Excuses, excuses… I’m to the point now where I have no regard as to what I’m putting in my mouth. It’s almost like if I keep eating I’ll eventually be at my heaviest and I’ll have no where to go but down once I start Weight Watchers right? I mean my 1st week’s loss is likely to be 20lbs by simply eating right a doing a few workouts huh? Umm right, I didn’t get this way overnight, I’m not going to be back to a comfortable size overnight either. I keep telling myself “Self, just wait until you have your kitchen back, then you can cook good for you foods, it’s not your fault you have to get fast food for almost every meal” “Self, if you eat leftovers, there’s like half the calories in it than when you got it from that restaurant since you paid for those up front” “Self, you better enjoy that chicken fried steak and peach cobbler cuz once d-day gets here and you can start working out again all this mess will be ovah!” I’m sick of excuses, I’m sick of eating out, I’m sick of feeling bloated and gross, I’m sick of putting on clothes that are too tight and hoping that a button flies off to give me some relief!



The ortho doc officially released me, we have a fridge and all my cooking supplies moved in, so now there are no more excuses. D-day is upon us my friends. My goal this week is to go to the grocery store and stock that fridge and cull out all the bad stuff in there and get started anew. I’m working on a post that logs where I am now and where I’m headed, and goals I’d like to meet along the way. I’m really thinking it through this time and feel good about getting a game plan together.



Happy Monday All!

What to do..

I’m working on a plan of action for my new journey. I’ve decided to call September 1st D-Day. We should have all the moving done except for a few boxes but for the most part actually LIVING in the house. I can start grocery shopping again and filling the house with good for me foods. I’m going to try to surround myself with only good snacks and things in the house that make my choices pretty easy.

I’ve also decided I’m going to start Weight Watchers. I’ve tried it in the past, albeit half heartedly, but this time I’m going in head on. I’ve read so many success stories and know people who have done great, it just has to work. The little bit of time I’ve used it, I believe if you follow it, it helps you make the right choices. Obviously you can eat more of what’s good for you so you really have to strategize on your daily intake. I can track online and on my phone so I like that.

I understand the science of weight loss, burning more calories than you take in = weight loss. I also understand how I work. I won’t diet or watch what I’m eating if I don’t workout. That may not be the healthiest stand to take but it’s my stand just the same. Hence, the situation I’m in right now. So, eating plan – check, workout plan – well, this is where it gets tricky… I have to admit I’m a little scared of the ankle. While I like miles of jogging outside that’s probably not the smartest for me just yet. I need to start small and work my way back up. I’m going with Jillian’s 30-day Shred, with a little modification. I like it because it’s only 20 minutes or so, probably the right amount of time for me to get started. My goal is all 5 workday mornings to get up and get my Shred on. I’ll start with Level 1 for week 1 and level 2 for week 2-3 and level 3 for week 4-5. After 5 weeks I’ll need to switch to something else. Anything I do outside of that will be bonus. I may try walks after work, or hitting the elliptical or bike. Either way, I just need to get my body moving. I’m going to try to use this as my daily diary to look back on and see my progress, and to log the good days and bad.