I am a Food-a-holic

Kinda like an alcoholic but with food. At least that's the realization I came to this weekend...

We have a guy on our deer lease, T,  that's an alcoholic. Like real bad. Like get up in the morning and drink whatever's left out from the night before. 1/2 drank beers, whatever's left in the whisky bottle on the table, bottles of beer that have been left out in the sun. It doesn't matter, he drinks it.

He tries to hide it from his wife. Like that's even possible. You know when someone's had too much to drink. He has so much alcohol in his system it doesn't even take him much of the leftovers before he's a stumblin, mumblin drunk. He has a stash of empty vodka bottles in a bush on the way to his stand. He's stashed empty bottles in the kids fort. It's sad, really.

But I can relate.. I've tried to hide my actions from people too. I've bought a bag of hot fries that I made sure to eat before I got home and hid the evidence in the trash. I've thrown away old cupcakes I was proud I didn't eat but not before I had one more cupcake top. This weekend Kb asked if I wanted a Star Crunch and I said "No, you know I'm watching what I eat" but after he was gone I snuck one out, ate it and hid the evidence.

All this to say everyone can tell by watching T that he's a drunk. Everyone can tell by looking at my ass that I don't eat right and workout all the time like it seems. Neither one of us are fooling anyone but ourselves.

I'm making a vow right now to STOP hiding. If I'm embarrassed for someone to find out what I'm eating, here's a crazy idea.. "DON'T EAT IT"

I've planned my meals this week and my workouts. I made a calendar and am highlighting my accomplishments. Looking back on that should give me the confidence to keep going.

I AM GOING TO HAVE A BETTER BODY AFTER BABY. That is my motto for 2014.