Figure it out

This was one of the BEST weekends we've had in a while. It was just me and Kb hanging out all weekend. At home, with a fire in the fireplace, watching football and movies. It seriously couldn't have been better. We rarely have weekends where we don't have anything going on and can just laze around like that so they're a special treat. I love that we can hang out together and really enjoy each other with no one else around. I thank God everyday for our relationship. I thank Him for the ins and outs and ups and downs that have brought us to where we are today.

We're in such a good place together, so I can't help but wonder why we're scared. We're scared to start this journey to becoming parents. Timing couldn't be any more perfect, though. We're married, we both have jobs, we have a great house, we came to the conclusion to become parents together, so what are we worried about? Some of our friends had their kids when they were much younger, hadn't figured out their relationship yet, or just one of them had the real desire to have kids so it happened. We're starting out much better off than them, even though for most, everything worked out ok. I know God has a plan for everyone, I'm just glad He made us feel like we were in control.

Kb and I are hardworking, determined, independent individuals. We know if we want something out of life we have to work for it. We've always worked toward a measureable, attainable, realistic end goals and more often than not, attained the end goal. Just saying you want to be "good parents" and raise a "good kid" isn't really measureable so how are we supposed to know if we're going to be good at it or do a good job? and honestly the things we're worried about don't need worrying for a few years. Should we build a bigger house? What school district do we need to be in? Will they like sports? Will they unfortunately have my coordination?

Other things are more immediate, how will we afford this kid? Daycare is expensive? I really haven't been around kids that much? How am I supposed to know what to do? How will our relationship change when time is taken away from each other to care for a little one?

We have a great support system (which I am very thankful for) and most of my friends and family say the same thing...You'll figure it out.

So upon entering this journey called parenthood, striving to be the "best" may not be a measureable or attainable goal and something we shouldn't worry ourselves about. We'll just have to be the best we can be. Along the way we'll just figure it out.